Tuesday, October 21, 2025

Sir Why

Let me give you a frenemy: 
I introduce you to Sir Why.
He can be your greatest philosopher,
Challenging you to seek with your intellect
To find what is True,
Being your help in the quest to find Him who is Truth.
Or he can become your greatest enemy,
Ceaselessly questioning and problematising everything, 
Even if it were to be true, leading you to
Question things for the sake of questioning,
Which may offer you the false satisfaction
Of having used your critical thinking,
But which may rob you of the truth,
If you reject the Truth and question Him as well.
I introduce you to Sir Why:
Guard him carefully, lest he overpower you

She

She was my first love, my first joy,
My only love, my only joy

Her name was Language.
Her hands were words, her feet were letters
Her eyes were sonnets, her voice was a song
When I looked into her eyes,
And she looked into mine,
All I could feel was the sweetest eloquence
Of beautiful words.

Words, words, everywhere,
Beautiful in themselves
But dancing with each other 
In the royal ball of languages,
Words dancing with words,
Weaving together greater beauty

O beauty that mankind cannot bear!

O that I could read aloud for thousands of years
Her epic poems, written throughout the centuries!
O that I could dance and delight
In the beauty of meaning!
The beauty that I see in her unassuming words
Catches me unawares
And makes me breathless and yet full of life

And yet she smiles gently at me - 
And her every smile is a majestic story of hope,
Her tears are tales of woe -
And she speaks, though all I hear is music:
"If thou callest me beautiful,
What if thou were to see my Maker?"

And all the world is silent,
Holding their breath.
For the Maker of Beauty
Is infinitely more beautiful

And everything parts, gives way,
And all I see is light, beautiful light,
Iridescence of majestic light,
And finally -
All languages, words,
Letters, meanings fade away,
And who I see is a single Word,
The Word

And if I thought she were beautiful - 
The Word -
O beauty that mankind cannot bear to behold!
I am now infinitely more breathless,
And yet full of life.
Silence! Eloquence! Majestic Beauty!
And all words hold their quiet

She was my first love, my first joy,
My only love, my only joy
Until I met her Maker.
And then did I fall in love 
With the Word

Friday, October 17, 2025

Reading poems I have written

Reading words
I had written days ago
I realise there is much to be surprised by.
For I am not the same man,
And those may not be the same words
I would use were I to write now.
Reading poems I have written
Is how at times I pass
(Or waste?) my time.
"What pride, what arrogance must you
Harbour in your heart, to act thus!"
I hear imaginary critics disapprove.

I wonder what my own Creator
Thinks of me
As I set about trying to create
Just like Him my Father -
Perhaps trying to imitate my Father.
He created all from nothing
And I attempt to create something from what He created.
I look at Tolkien who inspired
This thought of sub-creation within me
And I go on writing, go on reading.
Reading poems I have written
(And editing them for better or worse)
Is how at times I pass my time.

Wednesday, October 15, 2025

elusive stardust

who are you what are you
what are you doing, lurking
in the deep crevices of my mind.
this mind is mine, is it not,
who gave you permission
to break through the walls 
I had built round my deepest thoughts?
but now, now - aha! so we have visitors, 
it seems, come visit to read 
the rambling thoughts of 
a discombobulated man walking
through the streets of a busy city
on a weekday evening. how do you do,
shall I ask, or even better, 
what do you do here, 
and what do you expect to find? Well, 
if you were a-wondering who on earth
I'd been a-talking to, it was to poetry,
that sudden unseen sliver 
of elusive stardust that slinks into
the deepest chambers of my mind,
unannounced and disconcerting at times,
unpeace-ing my mind with its imperative
to look beyond what is visible,
to seek that which is true, good, and beautiful.
unannounced. but never unwelcome.
for when she comes like a dove
into the heart of thought,
all she touches is become beauty.
and I am not the same again,
for I think not the same, 
and seek not the same material things.
for that instant, I ride on the crest 
of that majestic wave of imagination.
I wish I could stay there for all time but I cannot; 
the mundanity of life draws me earthward,
which is good as well, lest I be all too easily
carried away into unreality.
but with the emotion and beauty of that moment,
I bid my will to fight, and to seek, and to choose that
which is most true, most good, most beautiful:
the Lord Jesus Christ

Tuesday, October 14, 2025

The Kindly Hairdresser of Adelaide

    Here I am, in Adelaide, going to cut my long, long hair in the city. I'd heard there was a great hairdresser saloon just along King William Street, which cuts through the city.

    I get into the saloon. It's just me at the moment. I wait a while, looking around. It's a small square shaped store, with mirrors on all four walls - a bit unusual - and pretty little vases with sweet flowers in them. 

    There are four black chairs as well. The floor and parts of the walls have jagged grey stones, and look quite stylish.

    Presently the hairdresser walks in, a kindly lady perhaps in her sixties. She smiles in a most friendly manner to me. "Hi, how are you?" She asks pleasantly. 

    "I'm good, yourself?"

    "Wonderful," she replies. She is dressed in a white shirt, black overcoat, and a green skirt with faint yellow flowers.

    "Could I have my hair cut very short?" I ask.

    "Sure I can," she says cheerfully, and turns around to her table, where she has kept her scissors and brushes.

    I wait a while, perhaps for a few minutes. She is still at the table, doing something. I am getting a bit impatient. "Excuse me," I begin.

    She suddenly whirls around to face me.

    Her face is now entirely different.

    Her eyes now are glistening with dancing flames,

    And are staring at me with a startling intensity.

    In her hands are a pair of scissors and a hairbrush.

    "What do you dare ask me?" She roars. Her voice is now a lion's roar, and it deafens my ears. The mirrors around me crack. A thousand different reflections are now an infinity of jarred, broken reflections. Terrified, I fall back into the chair, pale with fright.

    "I'm sorry," I stammer. 

    "You will be!" She bellows, and all the mirrors crack and fall onto the ground, a thousand shards of glistening glass, each one reflecting the world in ways so painfully different.

    The scissors in her hands becomes a sword forged of candleflame.

    The hairbrush becomes a shield. I look at the hairdresser, aghast.

    She is now an angry agèd Queen with a sword and shield.

    "You selective lover of words, what were you doing last afternoon?" She roars at me, brandishing her sword.

    "I was only writing down a few flimsy verses of poetry," I say, petrified.

    "And what did you write therein?"

    "I wrote about the English language,

     And how beautiful a language it was," I reply. "Aha!" She exclaims, snorting. "Pathetic!" She scoffs, she sniggers. And she reprimands me:

    "What are spoken words, are they all not the same human breath?

    And what are written words, are they all not the same man-made ink?

    What are words, mere words, mere words of mortal men,

    But human breath and man-made ink?"

    I don't know what to say, and I start sweating before this wrathful Queen, who I most randomly think to myself, comes across as an angry scolding mother as well. I deserve this reprimand, I think bitterly to myself. She continues her vitriolic tirade:

    "And no, you would think I am denouncing all words,

    But in truth, I am only unmasking your attitude

    To make you see what I have always seen:

    The universal grammarhood of the mortal word!

    For there is some aspect that is common to all mortal language,

    Some mysteriously unifying dimension - 

    And you needs must understand this before you pen another word,

    You pathetic travesty of a graphomaniac!

    We are all citizens of the same world,

    Whichever part of the globe we were born in does not matter,

    For we are all born into this pale blue dot of Earth

    And we are in this together, 

    One band of brothers and sisters.

    Language and geography must not divide!

    We must be one, and only one Word can hold us up,

    Uniting us together forever,

    And that is not of man."

    "Okay," I whimper back, trying not to feel too sorry for myself. She roars again, louder than ever, and fire spits out from her mouth, burning the wall next to me to rubble and ash. I sob pitifully.

    "Who are you, anyway?" I ask, trying to be angry and failing. "Who I am does not matter as much," She replies, cackling.

    "I am only a character,

    Not a symbol, nor a type.

    I am only here to shock, to stun, 

    And to finally force you to reality."

    She then calms down, and smiles at me most kindly. She continues, in a sweet, gentle voice:

    "I am only a figment 

    Of your own haphazard imagination, my child..."

    She then steps forward and towers above me, flames in her eyes again.

    "But what a mighty figment am I!" She bellows, and all the four walls of the saloon explode to smithereens, and she strikes me with her sword, and I am thrown flying into the air, landing on the other side of King William Street, gasping for precious breath. This old lady has literally beat the living daylights out of me.

    The lady has begun an entire storm. The clouds above darken and swirl round the city. Mighty gusts of winds bellow on every side. All of the city, all the skyscrapers, buildings, cars, the lot, are thrown into the air, swirling. I am in the air now as well, whirling in the sudden tornado.

    Everything rises up into the skies,

    All languages, words, letters, meanings,

    Twisting and turning.

    At the very bottom, though,

    At the very center of it all,

    Holding it all up,

    Maintaining existence,

    Is what is.

    A single Word.

    In principio erat Verbum.


    I behold the sight

    Of the city transcending itself.

    Beyond cement, glass, and cars.

    Light beyond light.

    The eye sees merely the tip, the soul feels the iceberg.

    And the Word, at the center, of everything

    The Word, the center, the everything.

    The Word then speaks to me

    And I listen, listening to gentle fire.

    Light from Light.

    The musical and healing fire of the Word

    Heals me, heals all,

    And unites us who are so tragically

    Distanced from each other,

    Despite our multitudinous perceptions,

    To be one huge, everlasting family.

    The storm quiets down, and everything slowly settles back onto level ground. I am back at the hairdresser's saloon. The kindly lady smiles at me. I scream. She tells me off again, gently this time, and reprimands me for my shortcomings. I sort of deserve it, I feel - all she's telling me is get up and live, face reality. 

    All the more reason to write, 

    For words may transcend 

    When they speak of the Word.

    She then cuts my hair, taking her own sweet time. I pay her when she's done (Fifty dollars for a haircut, a bit expensive I reckon, what with her service). I thank her though, and leave for home, grateful because she had cut both my hair and my pride.

    And now was I ready

    To seek out the

    Word



Monday, October 13, 2025

Et clamor meus ad te veniat

In the middle of the bustling city
Where no-one care for anyone,
You begin to sob,
Overwhelmed by the sadness of life.
Whence comes that strength to go on?
You are drowning in that lie of unlovableness
And yet are unwilling to let yourself be loved.

But lo! 
Realization strikes
like a blinding flash of light

Cry for a moment, 
Move on singing the next
In the everlasting Sonlight
And the hope-giving starlights

That is life for you

For if you are broken,
Or if you are not,
Who you need is Jesus,
Your God. Father, Creator.

In my every moment, 
And for all my many imperfections,
Christ suffices.

Et clamor meus ad te veniat.
Move on singing
For God's eyes have seen yours

Listening to Salve Regina

Mary - all creation calls Her Queen,
And we too - though we call Her Mother as well

In the ruins of an ancient building,
I listen to the solemn Salve Regina.
What beauty hides behind 
The sweet, poignant melody!
Such beauty the world cannot bear.
All shall be well -
Immersed in this beauty,
I want to run out onto the streets,
Like a modern day Archimedes in
The streets of Syracuse,
Not shouting Eureka,
But crying Beauty softly to myself.
I throw away every manly façade
And cry like a little child
(Whose child I am She knows)

I hear all creation
Begin to joyfully whisper,
"All shall be well
And all manner of thing shall be well."

I would want to weep in a Cathedral
For years and years
For the beauty of this melody
And the incredible beauty of this Queen,
Is more than mortal heart can bear.
I bid all the world weep,
With tears of joy, that we have a Mother so loving

I rush into Her embrace.
Mary draws me close to Herself,
And like a little child in its mother's arms
I rest peacefully.
She gives me a gift, a word,
One She had used long time ago
And uses every moment.
She whispers in my ear: Fiat
She also tells me that She would
Lead me to Her Son.
Ad Jesus Per Mariam.
I acquiesce. Fiat. Let it be, I whisper to Jesus.
"I will take care of everything," She says to me,
Smiling at my helplessness. "Trust me."
"I will lead you to God."

All shall be well

She also says to me: "I bid you, fight."
"Fight who?" I ask, confused.
"Not who", She answers. "But for who.
Fight for God."
She gives me a sword,
A powerful, double-edged sword,
Forged of light and fire.
"What is its name", I ask.
"Voluntas," She says, and hands it to me.
Now I feel like a knight 
Who has sworn an oath
To live for God,
Whatever it takes.
I needs must fight with the will,
And choose Christ over everything else, 
And in the choosing, find Christ.

She is here
We are in her embrace
Mother of us all, 
Yet formidable Queen too.
She will lead us to Christ.
Everything will be fine.
Everything will soon be most beautiful.
We only have to continue choosing
What is good, with God's grace,
And never reject Him. And then - 
All shall be well
And all manner of thing
    shall be
        well

Sunday, October 12, 2025

Aftermath of a Flood

Memory of how
I walked at dead of night
With a tired but peaceful group
Trudging slowly and prayerfully 
Towards the mountain,
The end of our quest,
Where we would arrive with the dawn.
Each prayer was a step closer,
A tired but peaceful step closer.

And I beheld all at once,
Not a host of golden daffodils,
But a host of dead leafless trees,
In a muddy field at midnight.
The trees were mud-stained till a metre high:
The aftermath of a deadly flood few months before,
Which had wrecked desolation
Upon this now-sleeping town.
A sad wasteland of a town that had seen suffering.

Slowly but surely
We plod along, towards 
The mountain that is Christ,
Who will give us and all creation
New life.

After the long weary walk of life,
Thou wert who I truly needed,
The fulfillment of my aching heart,
The slaking of my endless thirst.
Thou wert all I ever needed

He is our life-giving hope,
Our hope against the wastelands.
For in Him we find,
Finally, new life

Saturday, October 11, 2025

Australis Terris - Of Fire, Smoke, and Water

I feel the fear and sadness
Of a people who have seen 
Both bushfires and floods
Ravage their homes, their loved ones, 
Their livestock and trees.
In the land of the burning sun

And yet they defy their fears
And plod on resiliently, 
These indomitable ones.
Neither fire and smoke on the distant hills,
Nor tempestuous water on the parchèd plains,
Can deter them.
May nothing stop them 
From ceaselessly working 
Towards the life that their hearts truly long for.
I pray that God may see the desire 
Of these people of the Great South,
This great south land of the Holy Spirit,
And may He grant that they may draw closer,
Day by day,
To that life which He knows will satisfy the most.
In the land of the burning sun